Monday, August 29, 2011 10:25 PM
Hey, whats up blog?
Its funny that have not been here for a very long time.
i guess it wasn't much a point to actually tell anyone about how my life went for the longest time. This week alone was pretty fine. i guess i have not been myself so much. anyway, i will just splat out my thoughts here since not much with read this.
In a relationship, be it serious or friendship, its always better to talk things out with the other person compared to just leaving without a word announcing to all your friends that you didnt love a person you have been with for the passed 2 and half years the next day. Its hard to let go right, because there was and is no reason to actually leave a person without a word. It takes two hands to clap, one to snap. I admit that i was at the wrong for telling you to go, i didn't mean what i said. i just wanted someone to listen to the unspoken words that i show, i dont need the person i depend the most for emotionally support to actually bury me six feet under the ground. Every relationship has its ups and downs. the moments you try to make it work, but the other party refuses it. i dont know much anything about loving someone, till you can in my life giving me what i never experienced before. Wow, it was a great feeling, feeling i was accepted by someone, finally after 18 years of walking a lonely road. I felt everyone didnt want me for who i am but you came prove my heart wrong bout "NOT HAVING ANYONE" .... i bet you dont even remember the dreams we had together. the promises. i didnt expect any physical things from you. i just wanted you to smile and say "baby, you are great. i love you" i dont expect much looking at your background and situation. i didnt bother what they say about how stupid i was to get fooled by you too many times. i dont care what people say. because all i know is that I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, and i won't exchange you for anything else. i carried myself even though for that long time with you. i kept things from you than i am ashamed of sharing it with you. thinking i will lose you over those silly things that i did. i really dont know what is happening to me. i am strong than this. my anger is far away from me. i dont wana judge, i dont wanna offend. but i am not going to apologize that I wont let go, its not i suck of being who you want me to be. its you never tell me who you want me to be.